Have you ever been in a situation where you didn’t know what to do? Where your mind is racing and going a million miles an hour, but there’s no way out.
Have you ever felt like the walls are closing in on you, that there’s no escape? I will share some of my thoughts when I’ve been stuck in a situation.
That bloodcurdling moment
That bloodcurdling moment was back in January 2011, when I worked at FBIHQ and my supervisor had me in a behind-closed-doors meeting with her boss. They accused me of destroying documents which is bullshit because no way could’ve happened!
I won’t go into detail about what actually went down but let’s just say everything they said was not true, so we’ll leave it at this: Their accusations were proven to be unfounded (no offense).
Launched me into a Tailspin, Fight or Flight
That said, this meeting launched me into a tailspin, that I would never be the person that walked into that office, as I was when I staggered out.
Anyhow, we all have the fight-or-flight response (also known as the acute stress response), which refers to a physiological reaction that occurs when we are in the presence of something mentally or physically terrifying.
They were interrogating me as if I was a criminal; I said this has got to stop. But, those lunatics continued to apply pressure to get me to admit something I didn’t do.
Defiantly, I refuse. But, I did crush, my head went back hitting the wall, I couldn’t speak nor move for a short period. However, I tried several times to get up and run out of that dam office. But my legs weren’t cooperating.
Remarkably, I finally managed to get up and ran to my desk, picked up the phone, called my husband, but the words would not come out.
The walls closed in on me, I couldn’t breathe,
Next thing, the walls closed in on me, I couldn’t breathe, faces loomed over me, and everything got magnified until it sounded like someone was calling my name. In fact, someone from the medical office was trying to get me to calm down. I had a panic attack.
I didn’t know that feeling, never been in that place before. Once you turn on the fight or flight response, there is no switch to turn it off.
Question…have you ever been in a situation that didn’t go so well? Let me know.
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